[holds his expression for a few moments, then just kind of. deflates.]

... I've thought for a long time that it must have just been a fluke, that you ever loved me. I've always been there. Always. It's a rare life that I don't make it to your side. And sometimes it seems like it could just be that you don't like men, but I'm not always a man, either. Sometimes it seems like I'm just so close to having your love, and I just.... Don't.

Sometimes I wonder if what you felt back then was even love, or if you just didn't understand and were humoring me.